This morning I went on the scale and saw a number I haven’t seen in my twenties: 75,8 kg. It’s still at least 10 kg more then I should weigh, but it’s 8 kg less then before I got pregnant and as I said: my lowest weight so far in my twenties.

I’m not completely sure when I started to gain a lot of weight, but judging from the pictures I have, I think it started in 2004. I didn’t notice what was happening to my body until I had gained 20 kg, and I’ve struggled with that weight since. I wish someone would have told me that I was putting on weight, but I completely understand that no one did. Who wants to be that guy? ;) I don’t doubt it would have been hard to hear, but it would have been a lot easier to deal with 10 kg instead of 20 kg! I’ve told Tony that he better make sure to tell me if it happens again, even if he thinks it makes me sad.

I would never have thought that a pregnancy would be the thing that kicked me in the right direction again. At the beginning of my pregnancy, I weighed 83 kg. I lost 3 kg in the beginning, but my doctor thought I would probably reach 100 kg before Adrian was born. I didn’t though, and if I don’t remember it wrong, I weighed 91 kg on my last check-up before giving birth. Through the last two months I hardly gained any weight at all. When I got home from the hospital, I was down to 84 kg, and I’ve gradually lost weight since then – even if my daily diet has consisted of mostly biscuits and Pepsi Max (but at least I’ve eaten proper dinners almost every single day).

Now I’m trying to change my eating-habits, ’cause I know I’m playing with fire. Breast-feeding increases your metabolism, and I know that as soon as I stop doing that, my metabolism will decrease again. I’m pretty sure I’ll be able to gain the weight I’ve lost again in a matter of weeks if I don’t get my act together.

I used to obsess about my weight, but now I don’t care as much. I think I’m done with the crash-diets for the rest of my life, and will instead keep to healthy food, smaller portions, less snacking and more exercise.